Callie’s Surgery

by Chase on February 9, 2014

So, my sweet almost-13 year old puppy has cancer.  Her sweet signature Shiba curly tail had a tumor right at the base of the tail.  We had this happen once before and we had the tumor removed when we first found it in 2011, but it came back.

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We knew it could come back because of the nature of the growth, but we had gotten complacent because after so many months, nothing!  But I noticed it one night while we were getting ready to call it a night and get into bed, so I called the vet the first thing the next day.

We did what we thought was best and took her in for surgery on Jan 31. It went well, but the healing has been slow going. Because of the first surgery, she already had lost a lot of tissue when the first tumor was removed, so after the second surgery, there wasn’t enough skin to stitch.  We learned this the hard way when the stitches had cut off her blood flow meaning her tail wasn’t getting any blood and was at risk of dying.

But, we’re cautiously optimistic and the incision is healing… albeit slooowly.  It’s bandaged, but open. It’s truly hard to see your pet go through the difficulty of surgery!  Good thoughts and prayers accepted!

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Ruminations on Scarcity

by Chase on January 3, 2014

I heard this fascinating news clip on Thursday about the concept of scarcity.  If you have 5 minutes, please do listen to it.  If you’re not in place where you can listen today, here is the gist:

Not having enough money and not having enough time, might not seem like similar things, but psychologically, they are similar. You’re running low on something you desperately need, you feel the pinch of scarcity.

When you have scarcity and it creates a scarcity mindset, it leads you to take certain behaviors which in the short term help you manage scarcity, but in the long term only make matters worse.

…each delay made things worse the next day. Scarcity, whether of time or money, tends to focus the mind on immediate challenges. You stretch your budget to make ends meet. People in the grip of scarcity are tightly focused on meeting their urgent needs, but that focus comes at a price. Important things on the periphery get ignored.

This fascinated me because it answered exactly why it was that I kept making choices that weren’t in line with my long-term goals.  I blogged about this back in May of last year.  I couldn’t connect why I was falling short of my desired outcome, regardless of the fact that the outcome was what I wanted more than any other material possession or experience I could imagine.  It made no sense. There had to be a reason for the disconnect.

I didn’t understand it back then and I still don’t purport to have it fully analyzed, but the concept of Scarcity gave me a true A-ha! moment.  Working 6 days a week for upwards of 12 hours a day, I was under the stress of time-based scarcity.  I put everything off because I could only focus on what was in the here and now in my life.  I didn’t have the luxury of being able to think things through or worry about long term goals, (i.e. getting back into my clothes, per my post from May) because I was hyperfocused on the needs of the moment.

So, as of December 31, in an effort to end this time-based scarcity, I quit my part-time job. 

The pull of the desire to rid myself of the time-based scarcity stress burden was greater than any other desire:  greater than the desire for the supplemental income, greater than the desire for doing the job (which is something that falls in line with my life’s passion) and greater than the fear of letting people down (which was a palpable fear). 

Many years ago, when I was in my early 20’s and still working entry-level jobs, I remember the pull of financial scarcity.  I would spend too much money out with my friends at the bar or at the mall, not because I could afford it, but because it seemed to offer some immediate, short-term stress relief to free me from the feeling of financial scarcity.  Of course, it came back to bite me tenfold when I got the credit card bill that I couldn’t afford or didn’t have the money to pay rent.

Enter, part-time job.  The very same one I just quit after 10 years.

Working part-time helped me make up some of the difference.  It was enough money to bridge the gap and give me a little breathing room.  I loved the job and it paid well.

Of course, as humans are wont to do, I changed my spending habits to fill up usage of those funds to the point where I found financial scarcity all over again.  I’ve blogged about this before, but it took until I was 27 to realize that I would never free myself from the financial debt without making major lifestyle changes.  So, when I was 27, I moved out of where I was and when I was 28, I moved home with my parents.

It was the catalyst I needed to pay off my debt, get back on my feet and remove the daily financial scarcity stress.  And in 2014, in order to rid myself of the time-scarcity stress, I quit that very part-time job that helped bridge the gap of financial scarcity.

So here I am, early 30’s, with ten years of my own personal scarcity research, finally pursuing some balance.  I just didn’t know that’s what I was doing.

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Scenes from 2013

by Chase December 31, 2013
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My 2014 Goals

by Chase December 29, 2013

A few days premature, but never too early!  I just love this time of year – an opportunity to look forward to my next Best Year Ever!  Some say that the pursuit of self-improvement is a form of self-rejection (which I see the perspective) but I don’t agree.  I feel as though setting up aspirations […]

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2013 in review

by Chase December 23, 2013

Oh it’s that time again! December – the best month to get nostalgic about the great things you did over the last year.  For me, it’s even more so because my birthday is in December, so it’s another year older, another year better. This year was pretty good.  It didn’t carry the big-ticket events like […]

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Weekend in review

by Chase August 25, 2013

This post is going to take a bit longer to type than usual. waaamp waaaamp…  Yep I broke my finger.  But let’s circle back to the top before we get there. Saturday was my first ever CrossFit competition!  My gym did an end of summer competition between the AM and PM athletes.  I’m an AMer, […]

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Life lately

by Chase August 23, 2013

It’s been quite a while, friends! Thanks to those of you who stopped by while I was “under maintenance.” Let’s call it what it is – I took the blog down for a while for personal reasons.  But I’m here now, and looking forward to reconnecting with you! So what’s been going on lately?  (Other […]

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A day in the life: July 2013

by Chase July 11, 2013

Sometimes on different blogs that I read, I’ll see posts that chronicle one particular day in the life of the writer.  You know, just to get an idea of what keeps them busy from sun up to sun down. Bloggers share so much online, but of course there’s a lot left unsaid.  So these posts […]

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Checkin’ in.

by Chase July 5, 2013

Every time I sit down to write a post, I think, “OK, brain.  What do we want to talk about today?” and the first thing that comes to mind is a workout, fitness, healthy-living related thing.  I swear there’s a lot more to me than that, but before we get into anything more, let’s talk […]

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Ruminations on goals

by Chase May 30, 2013

I’ve been setting monthly goals lately.  Sometimes, they’re financial, sometimes they’re CrossFit performance goals, sometimes they’re healthy eating based.  For instance in May, I wanted to hit a new deadlift PR, which I did.  I also wanted to save a bunch of $ because I got a 3rd paycheck in the month of May, which […]

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